I'm bringing sexyback!

I'm beginning to feel the first few withdrawal symptoms of the S-word.
It's awful.
I see you opening up to friendships, willingly expanding the circle.
I can't stop you, in fact, I'm happy for you.
Soon, they will evaporate, unknowingly to me and you.
You pursue your social life and embrace new friendships to suit into your new environment.
I shall learn from you.
Since when have I begin to be such a clinger to relationship?
But neither am I much of a self-confessed introvent.
Actions speak louder than words.
I don't promise you a life-long commitment.
Life's short.
and UNPREDICTABLE.
Any moment, I may lose you and you may lose me.
I'm afraid most.
That's why I'm also standing near by your side.
SILENTLY.
When I looked back, I don't want to regret not clinging well to a relationship.
NO REGRETS.
Taking baby steps to be in par with you,
We shall see.
Three years down the road, we'll be different in good and bad ways.
No matter what, I'll stand by you, watching over you : )

I dreamt of you last night.
It was aww... sweet.
The final touches of our love had evaporated with this dream of mine.
Boy, let this dream remain a dream.
Reality sets in and you'll be hers.


You hurt my heart not once, not twice.
This ain't the first time.
You aren't afraid of breaking my heart.
Our blood flow uniformly, together.
Can't you see my eyes bleeding with frustration?
I'm trying so hard to try this hard.
You're disappointing yourself.
You behold your future and shall be God of your world.
I'm begging you to please beg a difference.
Be a devotee to your present.
Stop clinging onto things that bring nothing but pain.
I understand the hunger to be embraced.
But, at your age?
I should be the one longing for this kind of LOVE.
I didnt have it, why should you?


I didn't dare to look deep into your eyes for fear of a rekindling love.
I didn't try to avoid you.
There isn't hope for both of us every since the day i had decided to go with my heart.
You may ask why.
Search my heart.
I admit to fall deeply into your hands once.
But recovered in time.
Not because I changed, but my commitment.


I doubt you understand what I had written. Maybe some.? Shrugs
It'll be a busy week.

Til then, ciao.

Love, melis :)