I'm bringing sexyback!
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
me
im living everyday as if it's the last. i dont dare to think what tomorrow will become of me.
fear. confusion. darn. the oh-no-i-think-im-gettin-sick feelin is back. it may not be a bad thing. one, i want to escape from a lot of things. but two, i dont want to hide forever.
im quite sick of myself. im an idiot who doesnt have a mind of herself. i depend on the people aorund me. i dont stand up for my rights. i refuse to open up my feelings. and all i do is cry n hope that God will help me solve my problems. i've always been like that since god-knows-when. i havent change abit. but now, im willingly to make amends.
mum, i want so badly to talk to you. tell you my problems. we used to share this bond. where is it now? i miss you so much. i hope it's not too late. i have failed my duty as a daughter. i want to earn loads of money so i can give you the good life you deserved. you've been there for mic and i for the past few years. you can choose not to and leave us alone. but you didnt. you've played the roles of both mother and father. now that dad is on better terms with us. please dont leave us. i know you're very tired and im always giving you nothing but troubles. but please, i promise i'll learn to stand up for myself. i'll be a good daughter. i'll try to control my temper. i'll give you good life. i'll make you a proud mother of melissa.
sis, why must you always make me so worry for you? i cried buckets for you. worried my heart out for you. but you dont seem to understand. you dont seem to change. you seem to become worse. why? dont you know? i want you to be a useful person in life. it's for your own good. i love you so much. but you dont seem to know. sometimes mum said she want you to follow dad. at one point, i agreed. think twice, i cried. why cant you just behave, stop makin us so worry. study hard. get good grades. be a good student. it's just a small small request from us.
cherri, min, jiayin, jan, jt, sher. wen, jared, agnes. thanks for being there for me. i really, honestly, sincerely appreciate it. im thankful to have meet these great people. i'll repay you in this life, if not next life. you guys rock.
bye
nothing is impossible
peace
melis
fear. confusion. darn. the oh-no-i-think-im-gettin-sick feelin is back. it may not be a bad thing. one, i want to escape from a lot of things. but two, i dont want to hide forever.
im quite sick of myself. im an idiot who doesnt have a mind of herself. i depend on the people aorund me. i dont stand up for my rights. i refuse to open up my feelings. and all i do is cry n hope that God will help me solve my problems. i've always been like that since god-knows-when. i havent change abit. but now, im willingly to make amends.
mum, i want so badly to talk to you. tell you my problems. we used to share this bond. where is it now? i miss you so much. i hope it's not too late. i have failed my duty as a daughter. i want to earn loads of money so i can give you the good life you deserved. you've been there for mic and i for the past few years. you can choose not to and leave us alone. but you didnt. you've played the roles of both mother and father. now that dad is on better terms with us. please dont leave us. i know you're very tired and im always giving you nothing but troubles. but please, i promise i'll learn to stand up for myself. i'll be a good daughter. i'll try to control my temper. i'll give you good life. i'll make you a proud mother of melissa.
sis, why must you always make me so worry for you? i cried buckets for you. worried my heart out for you. but you dont seem to understand. you dont seem to change. you seem to become worse. why? dont you know? i want you to be a useful person in life. it's for your own good. i love you so much. but you dont seem to know. sometimes mum said she want you to follow dad. at one point, i agreed. think twice, i cried. why cant you just behave, stop makin us so worry. study hard. get good grades. be a good student. it's just a small small request from us.
cherri, min, jiayin, jan, jt, sher. wen, jared, agnes. thanks for being there for me. i really, honestly, sincerely appreciate it. im thankful to have meet these great people. i'll repay you in this life, if not next life. you guys rock.
bye
nothing is impossible
peace
melis
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hey gurl. dun feel lyk tt. when there's a will there's a way. stop thinking lyk tt. where's the strong-headed mel i used to noe? the one hu nv cry. the one hu held back her tears when the doctor removed the glass frm her leg? i wan tt mel back and i believe u can. for u are melissa! =D trust urself. though i cant help much in ur family problems, the only thing i can do is.... make u smile. and i hope i've done that. =D chills babe for there's so so so many ppl beside u. so many great frens. if ever u nid someone to tok to. there's always us here. i believe everyone is willing to listen esp me when u always listen to mine too. ^^ dun be sad le k? smile lots. =D
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jt
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